Change

During my last post, I vowed that the next blog posts would not be near as long, but I'll go ahead and confess that I can't promise that for this one...Actually, I can promise that it will be lengthy.


I've played this over and over in my head and how I would write the words out to document what the last few weeks of change has been for us. Every time I've sat down to type it out, I just haven't wanted to be dishonest and say how "okay" with everything I was. In my desire to be completely honest with where I've been through all of it, I wasn't ready to process my honesty with everyone that would read yet.


As you read in my last post, Cory was supposed to go to Milwaukee for training with his job the last week of Feb. I was going to Louisiana during that entire week to spend time with my family. I could not have been more excited! I was so ready to see my family and to see my sweet friend Sara Iles.
Cory was called in Friday morning into his manager's office to tell him to cancel his flights to Milwaukee. The company had decided that nation-wide, the role of CSR that Cory holds, would not be going to this training or to the one in April-May. They cancelled all of their traveling expenses to make "budget cuts" throughout the company. Cory's immediate response was, "Does this mean there's a chance I'll lose my job?" His manager's response, "No, not that we know of. If I was told to let go 2 of my lowest performing salesmen, you would not be in that ranking at all."


As I headed to Louisiana still for my planned week of relaxation and fun with family, friends, and my sweetest little niece, Cory made plans to keep himself busy throughout the week while I was gone with friends and planning for our house. We FINALLY found the perfect home to buy. It was a couple from our church that was selling it. It seems so perfect. When we went to look at it, I immediately thought, "This is our new home." The sweet lady we were buying from was a spectacular saleswoman. She immediately sold us on the house. We were excited for the neighbors we would have as some of them were fellow church members of the Village. It is a done deal. We just needed to have the contract typed up and signed! :) I started getting so, so excited! Finally, after all of the looking and researching houses and neighborhoods and square footages and frustrations from apartment living, it will all finally be over! I knew that all of the waiting had been worth it.


We started shopping for paint and colors as we were planning what we'd have done in each room. I imagined all of our things in our new home. We spent date nights shopping for furniture and dreaming of what our life will be like with this house. We talked about where everyone would sleep when we had our families come to visit. We imagined having our home group there. SO EXCITING! We covered it in prayer together and individually several times a day over the house wanting to continue trusting the Lord through this and rejoicing for what He has already done through it! As I left for Louisiana, I was THRILLED that I would come back to a home that was OURS. Finally. Cory was going to do the official paperwork on Mon. or Tues. of the week that I was gone.


Sunday night when I made it to my parent's house, my sweet and beautiful niece Brynlee was there. She didn't want to miss a beat when I was there. My mom and I put her down for the night while Jordan was working and she was out...until she decided to wake up around 9:30 and wanted to have a late night sleepover party til 2 am with her aunt and grandma! Such sweet memories made with her during this restless time. Monday morning waking up to the most adorable baby girl there is cooing and touching my face was a precious memory.  Jordan brought her in to wake me up. I love Brynlee so much. It often makes me wonder how much I will love my own :)She is so much fun!


We all hung out for the morning and then around 10:30, I started thinking, "I wonder if Cory has talked to the family that's selling us the house. I bet he's already met with them!" So I called him ready to hear the latest on the house. He answered sounded distracted. When I said, "What are you doing?!" He responded with the words that sent me into a shock...."I'm going to need to call you back... I just lost my job."


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Truly in disbelief, I just sat there...quiet. I remember immediately getting on my knees but not having any words to pray or any tears to cry. I just sat there.


After about 20 minutes, I went and told my mom and my brother Jordan. Also in disbelief. After thinking contemplating for hours what to do, I ended up heading back to Texas cutting my 6 day trip into an overnight trip and heading back to be with Cory through this. I think I cried the whole way home.


The amount of detail and the Lord's work that has happened since that day, February 27, is truly impossible to give justice to through blogging but I will try...next blog. I have put off posting this and wanting to add such great detail to it...much more than I did. I know that if I don't publish now, I won't. More updates to come very soon!


Jesus is enough.